Recently, I have been encouraged by multiple sources to make time for silence. Complete silence. This time is different than my quiet time with my Bible and journal. This time is a time for God to make moves inside of me. This time does not comes easily- I am one to fill silence the very best I can. I battle anxious thoughts and depressive behaviors that crowd my head when things sit still. For years I have been filling the void, avoiding the thoughts and leaving no crevasses for the “badness,” to creep in.
All this void-filling also made it impossible for me to hear God. I have been a believer my entire life and for years have listened to people talk about what God is teaching them, what He is saying to them, but I could never truly relate. I wanted to hear Him so badly. I questioned daily what I was doing wrong that I could not hear Him.
I decided to try a time of silence, despite my fear. It felt amazing! It was like decluttering my brain. It was during a time where I was laying on my bed, embracing my ten minutes of silence while my daughter was napping that I felt this push to read the book of Leviticus. This was it! God was talking to me, and I could feel Him! I had just finished the book of Matthew, and was gearing up for Romans, but felt the pull so intense that I had to listen.
I quickly questioned this feeling. Leviticus? You mean the book about sacrifices and what is clean and unclean? If you haven’t spent much time in Leviticus, it is a pretty graphic book that is filled with sacraments, rules and commands for the Israelites. God is talking to Moses and laying down the law for his people. It took me three days to finish, and for the first two I was reading through with one eye open. Some of the topics made me uneasy, especially the graphic explanation of animal sacrifice. But when I finished reading, I realized why God told me to read this book, and to read it right now.
In chapter 19 alone, God says “I am the Lord your God,” 16 times. If that isn’t a clear theme, I don’t know what is.
Within the law He is laying, God is reminding us that He is it! He is sufficient. He holds today, tomorrow and eternity and He commands us to look to Him in it all. He gives Moses these sacraments for His glory, because He is deserving.
“You shall follow my rules and keep my statutes and walk in them. I am the Lord your God. You shall therefore keep my statutes and my rules; if a person does them, he shall live by them: I am the Lord,” (Leviticus 18:4, ESV).
God is serious about these laws. And this doesn’t fade away when grace entered the picture. He is just as serious with us today as He was when He spoke these words to Moses thousands of years ago.
He is worthy of our loyalty and our recognition, and He demands it. We hear that He is a jealous God, and it is true.
In chapter 29 He says, “you shall be holy to me, for I the Lord am holy and have separated you from the peoples, that you should be mine.” He chose us. We are not our own. As much as the world encourages us to find our personal happiness and to, “do you!” This isn’t the truth. The truth is that He is the Lord our God, we are not our own, and we were bought with a price (1 Corinthians 6:19-20).
This reminder was something that I needed. It is easy to slip into this world and to look within for answers. But the answers are in His word and we are extremely fortunate to have it at our fingertips to read, and reread every chance we get. My prayer is that this small overview is what you needed as well.
What has God been saying to you lately? Do you struggle hearing Him? I challenge you to commit to 5 minutes of silence per day and to see how God moves inside of you.
Hi! I'm Alana
I am so glad that you stumbled upon Tired Mom Life. This is my small corner of the internet where I share my heart, what God is doing in my life, and how I work to see Him in all of the jumbled life of being a mom, wife and follower of Christ. My prayer is that God is able to touch you through my experience and that you will be encouraged that you are not alone, and you are so loved.
I am a young-mother to my 1 year old daughter, and a wife to the spiritual leader of my prayers. I love being outside, going for walks, writing and being with my family. I am excited to be pursuing this God-given passion of writing and I am so thankful you have decided to come along.
Seek the Lord and His strength; seek his presence continually!
1 Chronicles 16:11, ESV